tears

i often wish not to cry anymore...

i often hope not to feel sadness inside...

i tried to pray hard wishing heaven could hear my sigh...

at the end of the day i embrace myself not wanting tears to fall from my eyes...

i wonder what real happiness means...

even if i laugh out loud i hear sobs in between...

when its dark i feel so alone...

afraid of the silence making me deaf within my soul...

can't stop tears from falling and it hurts to feel each pain...

though it should have healed long time ago...

the scars keep reminding me of all the sorrows...

and though i know others been through harder life than mine...

tears keep falling into my eyes...