sadness

as i sit and start to think of life
i mumble words deep down inside my heart
and though nobody could hear it now
my heart longs for someone who would make me fine
i hope to get closer to that shining star
that seems to glow but sadness sparks in its eye
everyone has its shares of sadness that we try to hide
yet no one can ever cheat a heart that stayed lonely for quite sometime
a can giggle and laugh around
can sing a song and even dance all night
but as i see my shadow on the ground
i cannot hide it any longer
the coldest shadow that breaks my heart

i tried to convince the wind to blow away my fears...
i tried to tell the sun to shine through my darkened mind...
i tried to whisper the silent moon to make my heart serene...
and as i tried so hard to cheat the world of what i really feel...
the tears starts to fall my cheeks as my heart breaks...
it is not the rushing of the waters on the shore that make it bleed...
not even the quiet leaves of dying trees around the fields...
i myself cannot find the source of all these pains...
but i hope one day the wound will heal and scars will not stay even just a trace...
if a paint can cover up the imperfections of the wall...
or the curtains can cover up the ugly windowpane...
i wish to erase the memories of bitter past and move on with my life...
yet its not just like an error i can delete...
it is something beyond that even just a spark of light can make my heart to bleed...