i, who is not whole

i couldn't believe my eyes
as i saw how he walk the aisle
no arms no legs just body and face
yet there's this sparkle i've never seen before
the happiness that i, the complete one, always long for
and as i continue to watch him talk
in my heart i suddenly start to choke
shame is what i feel inside of me
how serene this man's life could be
i envy him for his courage
i envy him for his faith
i, who thought,am whole was never been whole
for my heart was never been thankful enough of my joys
my mind was never mindful of what is on my table
my body was never been as strong to be the temple of God
and now though i want to be happy as i found my gifts
i do feel sad that i spent so much time searching
searching for things that i already have but never used
legs that i always care but never walked along
hands that i always touch but never touch my soul
and as my brain starts to think of my failures
my heart start to beat for another chance
and with this man who says he has everything that eyes can not see
i wished that i,too, can be like him that have happiness to give to thee

thanks to eddymuz for his post about motivations...